all the things you might think....
im going to look into that.
a n x i e t y is the worst.
i feel the worst.
i say all the good stuff out loud right away.
then im all out.
then it's time to pick apart every last little thing...
every idea...
every crumb.
nothing is real.not this body.
this house.my brain.my cat.he has a soul like i have a soul.we could just slip into another dimension.infinite possibilities to explore.

no im not on any fucking drugs.

im just tired of this world.
maybe m and lo and i could just disappear into an alternate universe...like maybe find a wormhole and the proper um ...spacecraft??....and just find out what else there is...the mysteries of the universe...i cant believe that this is it. i cant believe i have to do this, trapped in this body and in this world, and know that things just arent how they seem. i wonder how they are.
i guess with time and patience i will find out.

patience has never been something i was good at.
like most things.

i need to get a firm grasp on reality.
but...