All of my fears have come true.

I'm a joke.

It's none of my business what other people think of me.
But I'm not who I thought I was.

So now what?

I'm not smart.
I know it.
I hate it.

I don't think I really know the people around me.
My friends.
My family.
Anyone.

I feel completely disconnected.

Everything keeps getting worse and worse.
My thought process more...fucking something.
I'm not fucking smart enough to think of the word.