i'll be in my car driving
straight through a red light
while you're running
through my mind.
arrest me
and
say
yes.




if i had a car, i'd drive it off a bridge.
and if i had a way out, i'd take it.
have you ever felt so miserable tears leak down your face at the most inopportune moments.
have you ever got someone to love you, then realized that person is far too good for you.
that person loves you, and you're full of hate.
i just want to be left alone.
so i can sink into the silence and darkness
and
just
give up
give in.
i can't win this.
maybe it's not about winning.
but i don't fucking want to play anymore.

someone just put me out of my misery.