everything is fine. (weights and measures)

the weight of one thousand days.
one millions seconds and i'm failing.
i get stuck in this and i can't get out.
over and over
repeating hatred boiling from my insides.
i don't want to piss and moan and cry all night.
you creep down the hall up the stairs and to the window to watch the tragedy that we despise.
strong wind blowing me far, far away.
no....not tonight.
because if you have to ask i don't even think that i want.
want
want
want
ache and seethe until no one even wants in.
don't come in.
keep out.
of my private club house.

i wish i could.
Just this once.
this once private date
is now posted on the stars
and falling out of my mouth to anyone that will listen.

i need sleep.
so i can dream
and not be awake in a nightmare.

oh yeah kayla, i almost forgot to tell you....
you're being a little fucking dramatic for no reason.
you're life is wonderful.
everything is fine.

everything is fine.

everything is fine,
fine.
fine.
fine.


FUCKING FINE.