you say...i say...we all fucking say.

you better believe i have the burning hate.
i hate hate hate.
you and your friends and your life and everything in between.
my and my friends and my life and everything in between.
trying to find the link between liver and brain.
heart and soul.
yes and no.
today and yesterday.
this or not.
fuck it....
or don't.
trying to figure out which way my heart is turning inside my chest.
towards the light...
towards the darkness...
i am entangled in darkness
and a light hearted flip of a switch.
i am endless and engulfed and completely...
full of shit.
i laugh, talk, walk, oh.
my.
god.
this is not the life i wanted.
it is the life i got.
i am everything i ever wanted.
i just don't know what to do with myself....
or the heaviness i carry in my chest.
or the self-inflicted wounds i carry like swords.
calling all cars...
little girl lost.